Am I ready?

Upon the start of a new chapter, one has to leave the previous chapter. Sad to say, I have to leave the group I was with for whole summer of 2012. Some of them will also be leaving to start a new career (Allen shall be trying his luck in applying for a job abroad).

For more than a month (that was April 28-June 1), I have stayed in Sta Rosa, Laguna and bonded with the same people I was with during the months of March and April. Fortunately, this project seemed less stressful to me as compared to the previous projects I have handled...(though I know it's not the case for Machele, for she'll be blacklisted in all government-funded projects if she fails to finish this whole thing by the end of June).

I just let myself taste the goodness of life, and didn't let myself worry over any issue that arose in the field for the past one month. Here, I was able to give more time for myself - to jog, to mingle with friends through facebook, and phone-called those whom I haven't contacted for so long. 

I was also the one who chose the house where the team would stay, and of course, I chose the best one. Hehe. I chose the the composition of the team I was with and took every opportunity to find comfort. Besides, I was really supposed to go back home for a leave to relax. It's just that I needed to help Machele handle one of her project area, so here I am, standing as a true friend in need. Hehe.

The month of June had just come, and the review month has commenced. This marks the beginning of a 3-month journey towards the light, the cross road that will lead me to where God would really want me to be. Hooooh. Erwin had just said, "if we fail this, then maybe this profession is not for us." I just hope that those words came from a certain enlightening from above, and not just a mere outburst of thoughts from a bewildered mind. Hehe. (He, himself has not been so sure if he really loves this profession and just want to try this out.)

3 months of memorization, problem-solving and reading. I just hope I'm strong enough to resist one of the 7 deadly sins of man - laziness or sloth.

I'm praying that God will ready my heart for whatever that will come through this whole 3-month journey.

Amen.