'WAG MO'NG IPAKITANG DI KA MARUNONG"

These were the very words that the infamous Loven has told me last friday night. A tip that he has shared with me...a tip for a more convincing and positive impression for the bosses, he said grinly.(I guess this is just what he's done during his juvenile stages in the company) And see what's he's become now. A dreaded Team Leader. Though friendly, he's at most times, annoying.

Overconfident. This I guess is the best word to describe him.

After 3 weeks in 3D, Loven has decided to transfer me to the 2D department for me and for Lara (my fellow new hiree) to experience both 2D and 3D. Lara has been with the 2D Department then for whole 3-week duration. But being the sensitive me, something in my mind tells me that perhaps it was my slow performance that directed him to transfer me to the 2D.

Through the whole saturday morning, I reflected on every word that he said. I started to think of the positive outcome of the change that I'm planning to make. To pretend that I know the task would be a disaster, I thought. But the other side of me, tells me to try it.

"Wag mo'g ipakitang di mo alam" equals to "Ipakita mong alam mo" and in totality, would only sum up to "PAGMAMAGALING".

PAGMAMAGALING...Being boastful. This is just the attitude that I'm always trying to avoid. I hate bragging about myself. But sad to say, it is necessary in this world of competition. The meek are put aside, while the show-offs succeeds.

I was on the verge of dipping my toe to being the person that Loven has suggested me to become until I heard HIS word last sunday.

PHOTO: The Interior of the St. John the Baptist

Church, Pinaglabana, San Juan City. I was then fortunate to attend a mass celebration as solemn as the mass celebrations in ViSCA or in the Carmelite Monastery in Lahug.

Meekness is not weakness.

These words had somehow enlightened me and provided me with the right and better direction.These were spoken by the presiding Priest of the 9:30-mass celebrated in the St. John the Baptist Parish in San Juan last sunday.

He's mentioned the downfall and mishaps of the persons who've acted like they are "somebody". Individuals who acted like they own everything they have... and individuals who boast and refuse to humble themselves.

Reflecting and relating these words to my situation, I've come to think that indeed it would be a disaster if I would pretend to be all-knowing with the task... task that I'm just beginning to learn. Pretending..is just synonymous to lying, I realized. And this, would only generate more problems or dilemma to the situation.Remain humble--this is what I'm always telling myself.

When you choose the lowest path,
there is no place for you to fall
and the only way is UP.

I've heard these words from Father Fernando Suarez and Father Mario so many times on TV, and the Priest in Pinaglabanan has mentioned it once again.

"We don't own anything in this world.

Therefore, we don't have anything to boast ourselves of."

Indeed, all our talents, skills, wisdom, properties, beauty, and just about anything we're holding right now are all HIS. The air we breathe, the clothes we wear and above all, the LIFE we have belongs to the POTTER's HANDS.

He owns it, and we live to please Him, not ourselves.

For the times that I've forgotten about humbling myself to HIM, I'm asking HIS forgiveness. And I'm thanking HIM for being there always.

As I departed from Leyte 4 weeks ago, I've decided not to let go of HIS hands for I am afraid that I may end up like I've been before when I was working in Cebu.

I've made a song I've entitled: " BE MY LIGHT". And I've played it with abai erwin singing while I'm strumming the chords then. I just hope abai er has added more stanza to it. It'll do just fine with only one though.

I'll be posting it soon when I finish all its lyrics.